thank you pastagang
i was tired and felt like i couldn't come up with better words, so just tooted those. but now that i am awake, i feel like those are some very good words.
i am thankful for the cool concepts and ideas, for the good times, for the kind people, for the welcoming community.
i was having bad feelings about the death of nudel. for me, nudel was the magic. main interaction with/as pastagang, the jam. the thing i told friends about. what i was happy to have discovered and proud to be a (small) part of.
not much pastagang involvement lately. maybe because i was busy with life, maybe because i was having bad feelings about it (nudel-related).
still wanted to join when i saw the death of nudel incoming. joined the jam a bit, someone commented about how it took me several tries to type something. made me feel a lot better about the death of nudel, haven't seen much of uh, that yet. took a look at ravioli, which has grown so much since the last time i visited, made me feel much better about the death of nudel. took a walk which made me feel a lot better in general.
the death of nudel was absolutely rad. i was so happy to be part of the jam, to participate, to contribute, to see others do more awesome things with my contributions or delete them. i wish i could have been there (linz) and am a bit sad i couldn't be, but i'm very happy and grateful that i was still able to be there (cyberspace).
also, i think today i actually realized, despite knowing for a while: nudel isn't the magic. it's one channel for the magic, one place for the magic to meet, it allows some expressions of the magic. but there are and will be other things that will do this, be this. in different ways. which makes me a bit sad because i have grown to like some of the ways, but also very exciting and cool!
(also i wrote this the day after the death of nudel but then forgot to post it woops)